Seriously, I think I made a mistake. I spent a huge chunk of time yesterday on there–and about an hour this morning–browsing and favoriting and stuff.
I mean, I haven’t spent any money there yet, but “yet” is the operative part of the sentence. (So far, they don’t have my credit card/PayPal information, and that’s about the only thing stopping me.)
I only went to look for eye chips for Pyrrha, and clothes for Byul/Kaiko, right? That’s harmless, right?
Um, but then I did some searches.
There are so many vintage toys from my childhood! Things I’ve long lost–like She-Ra dolls and Galoob’s Golden Girl dolls–and things I’d forgotten I’d ever had, and things I remember but didn’t actually have because my parents were more capable of saying “no” to me than I am. Not to mention all the vintage toys that are older than I am but which I’ve seen in the museum and fallen in love with and now want for myself. (And it’s kind of scary that I can find some of them in better shape on Etsy than the ones in the museum’s collection, and they’re not even that pricey.)
Thing is, this is exactly how I got myself in trouble years ago. I started buying toys from my childhood, and ended up with boxes of crap that I no longer want, and…ugh. I’m trying to stop myself before I start, you know? I need to put a limiter on myself, on my spending. I wonder if Etsy has a way of putting a limiter on what kind of things you can buy, like “no vintage purchases other than She-Ra” or something. (Okay, that’s way too specific, they’d never have that.)
I’m determined that if I do indeed take the plunge and start actually buying things, I absolutely will be a good girl and start with what I meant to start with: hand-made doll clothes, and eye chips for Pyrrha. (Am I still allowed to call myself a “girl” now that I’m 40, or am I breaking some kind of international law?)
Not all the clothes are going to be for Byul/Kaiko, though. In fact, I’ll probably start out with some that aren’t. I was thinking of getting a crocheted dress for Yeolume…if one of your Middie Blythe dresses with fit her, Olive? They’re really cute. 😀
I also found some knitted dresses for Moxie Girlz Teenz, which will take the place of the Gene dress one of mine is wearing, so I can give that to Madra Lord; that will be much cheaper than getting a new dress actually intended for a Gene doll. (Though there are some actual–in package–Gene dresses on Etsy for pretty cheap, but I don’t like any of them for Madra. Besides, the knitted ones are so cute that I can’t pick which one I want, and I’m gonna hafta get two of them. 😀 )
The real question becomes about eye chips, though. I could use some advice, in fact. I know that the way to handle Blythe customization (or any doll customization) is always deeply personal, but hearing others’ thoughts is always a good way to help focus one’s own thoughts. So there are all these great eye chips out there, but trying to find four eye chips I really like that will fit Pyrrha’s personality and color scheme in a similar style is going to be more difficult. So is it typical to have one or two that are really spectacular, and the rest be more plain, or is it common for them all to be wild and wonderful and unique, or does it really differ by everyone who customizes, or by the personality of the doll?
On top of all this, I also find myself wanting to buy the Taeyang KAITO before he vanishes like the other Vocaloid Pullips (I checked, and Pullipstyle doesn’t have Miku anymore after all, which is actually okay, because I’d probably do creepy things with her and Luka if I had her), which means roughly $100, and then there’s these other really cute dolls I was thinking of getting from Amazon, one of which is down to the last 3, but to reduce shipping costs I have to get two dolls (since it’s partially by weight and partially per shipment (from Korea), the shipping is $15 for one doll, $10 the other, but $20 for both) but that would be about another $100, and then there’s the Pang-ju Black Russian cute little vampire doggy doll and the BJD Ai Tsubaki cute little fox spirit, both currently on sale at Pullipstyle, both of which I’d like very much…and which would combine to another $100. OMG. What is wrong with me? The worst part is that on all of the stuff in this paragraph, I feel like if I don’t buy these things in moderately short order, I will have either missed out on them altogether, or would have to pay far too much for them later if I do ever want to acquire them. I think that’s my real problem. It’s not so much that I have this greedy sense of “I want” going all the time, it’s that I have this sense of “if I don’t get it now, I may never have a chance ever again, and I’m going to hate myself for missing my only opportunity!” Which is perhaps merely the same thing from a different point of view, but…sigh…
I should get ready to go to class instead of continuing to gripe about this.